Rainy lazy day

I love those rainy day. Dim sky with cold breeze. The air is filled by soft tinkling sound of rain that eases away all my stress and makes everything look even calmer and quite. Wrap myself in his blanket and let me be lazy for just one day. Watching movie, Viber with mom and dad. I’m not kind of daughter who will talk to mom every single night, sob or complain to them how crappy things are. I just don’t want mom to worry about me and cry, cause I know that feeling, powerless, useless when you can’t be there with your beloved one. So yep, white lies hurt nothing.

I was so lazy to cook anything, but thank god, whoever invented tortilla wrap and burrito is genius. Just put all the things you want to eat, and let the rest for that tasty yummy wrap and sauce to work on. Wrap up, and Whoa la. Things can’t just go wrong with burrito. Nom nom nom 

Veggie burrito 

Happily independent

When I said “ I want to live independently”. It doesn’t mean I want to be living alone, by myself, or some sorts of things like enjoying of being alone. Well, I don’t say those are wrong, they are just too narrow for what I define is “independence”. I still want to hang out, have a drink, chatting, talk to parent, cry, laugh or rely on someone. I still need someone to break my fall when I’m at worse, I still need a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold on, compassion smile; cause I am a human being, and pursuit of happiness is what human does (or at least most of…). But then, being happy or not, how I am supposed to live, the only person can decide that is me. Because I’d never ever, let someone to decide for me how to live to have a happy life, or simply, decide on my happiness. I will be the one create it, I decide it. Independently happy. I don’t want my happiness to be tied on someone, or something, and being so scared of one day being broken into pieces. Because I don’t want to blame on any one for any wrong decisions or miserable moments in my life. It would be a lame excuse. So yep, I’m on my way. Creating my happiness.